My final goodbye....

I'm standing by the window, the breeze playing with my hair and the songs playing with my head. The songs seem to mean something now. I listen to the words more carefully, as if trying to read if the singer says what I feel. I wonder if I should send you one of the songs to tell you how I felt.

I have a smile on my face. The phone in my hand. A reason to talk to you or to message you. And then I remember all the times you did something that made me listen to sad songs. A tear would roll down my face as I heard the songs. I blamed it on the song, the music, the lyrics. Never on you. But I can't be blind to it forever. It was the song, the lyrics....because they reminded me of you.

I would fight for you but how can I fight for someone who isn't there. Why am I afraid of losing you when you were never mine. So I say my final goodbye.

Suddenly, the wind seems colder. The songs don't seem to mean that much. But they make me happier.

"Cuz I want it all 
Or nothing at all 
There's nowhere left to fall 
When you reach the bottom it's now or never 
Is it all 
Or are we just friends 
Is this how it ends 
With a simple telephone call 
You leave me here with nothing at all 

There are time it seems to me 
I'm sharing you with memories 
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it 
Then there's times you look at me 
As though I'm all that you cN see 
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it 

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well 
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell 

Cuz I want it all 
Or nothing at all 
There's nowhere left to fall 
When you reach the bottom it's now or never 
Is it all 
Or are we just friends 
Is this how it ends 
With a simple telephone call 
You leave me here with nothing at all "-Westlife (All or Nothing)