Dedicated to the worlds biggest idiot....
I love watching movies. Because while I am watching them, I can be whoever I want to be. I can be the girl who screwed up but made everything okay. I could be the cancer patient, or the girl who finds true love. But my favourite character is always the one of the best friend. I loved being the best friend, and I loved movies which revolved around friendship.
But I think it is important to tell you that I was fascinated only with those movies which showed the best friends as a boy and a girl. I don't know why. Perhaps because I had studied in an All girls school until my 10th grade and I already had amazing friends who were girls. Or maybe because Enid Blyton already had defined my definition of what two or more girls who are best friends should be like. And I had that. But everyone spoke about the friendship between a boy and a girl in different ways. Some say it could never exist without one or the other falling in love with the other. Some said it would eventually fade away and some said it existed but was rare to find. I wasn't sure about my views on it.
I entered a school where my class had more boys then girls. I decided to stick to having all girls as friends and to keep the boys far far away. Somehow though, the boys broke my walls and some of them did become my friends. And I did share a very 'filmy' friendship with them. And I lived my movie story for a while. But not for long. Just like the movie ends, this friendship did too. That was true for some more friendships and I began to believe that I could never have a friendship with a guy as amazing as the one I had with my girls. Dont get me wrong. I had some amazing guy friends, who would cheer me up with ice creams, who treated me like a princess, who I could beat up when I was sad....but it just wasn't the same. Then there was my brother, but he was obligated to do all that because he was family.
The movies had lied. They weren't real. It was like finding out that Santa Claus didn't exist.
But I was wrong. I had the worlds most amazing guy best friend and I had failed to see it because I was so blinded by the movies. I believed that the friendship needed to be flamboyant and that the whole world needed to know. But I was wrong. My best friend was there for me, even when I didn't know it myself. I had a friend who cared for me more than I did for myself, who offered to beat up guys who hurt me, who listened to me patiently and told me what to do. He didn't let me give up on myself or my dreams even when I had stopped believing in them myself. He let me yell at him to make me feel better, woke up at night to listen to me, told me his secrets, patiently answered my questions when I asked him silly ones, drove me and our friends out to eat when I was craving certain types of food. He is my Chandler with his silly stupid jokes, my Ross who puts me before him always and my Joey, who cares for me like an older brother.
This entry is for you Saad, because you told me I could write. Thank you for always being there.
But I think it is important to tell you that I was fascinated only with those movies which showed the best friends as a boy and a girl. I don't know why. Perhaps because I had studied in an All girls school until my 10th grade and I already had amazing friends who were girls. Or maybe because Enid Blyton already had defined my definition of what two or more girls who are best friends should be like. And I had that. But everyone spoke about the friendship between a boy and a girl in different ways. Some say it could never exist without one or the other falling in love with the other. Some said it would eventually fade away and some said it existed but was rare to find. I wasn't sure about my views on it.
I entered a school where my class had more boys then girls. I decided to stick to having all girls as friends and to keep the boys far far away. Somehow though, the boys broke my walls and some of them did become my friends. And I did share a very 'filmy' friendship with them. And I lived my movie story for a while. But not for long. Just like the movie ends, this friendship did too. That was true for some more friendships and I began to believe that I could never have a friendship with a guy as amazing as the one I had with my girls. Dont get me wrong. I had some amazing guy friends, who would cheer me up with ice creams, who treated me like a princess, who I could beat up when I was sad....but it just wasn't the same. Then there was my brother, but he was obligated to do all that because he was family.
The movies had lied. They weren't real. It was like finding out that Santa Claus didn't exist.
But I was wrong. I had the worlds most amazing guy best friend and I had failed to see it because I was so blinded by the movies. I believed that the friendship needed to be flamboyant and that the whole world needed to know. But I was wrong. My best friend was there for me, even when I didn't know it myself. I had a friend who cared for me more than I did for myself, who offered to beat up guys who hurt me, who listened to me patiently and told me what to do. He didn't let me give up on myself or my dreams even when I had stopped believing in them myself. He let me yell at him to make me feel better, woke up at night to listen to me, told me his secrets, patiently answered my questions when I asked him silly ones, drove me and our friends out to eat when I was craving certain types of food. He is my Chandler with his silly stupid jokes, my Ross who puts me before him always and my Joey, who cares for me like an older brother.
This entry is for you Saad, because you told me I could write. Thank you for always being there.
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